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Proud
Last night I was walking back to my car from my college class. A class I have had to drop and a class that I have failed several times. The “last class.” The last class until I have earned my BA in child development. My nemesis, if you will. As I passed the very familiar tennis courts on the way to my car, a tear started to fall. A tear of pride. You see, not far, less than a quarter mile from this spot I was walking on is a park. A park that many things in my life happened…

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Wolf grin and tiger growl
I just want truth in my life. I just want to be able to get up in the morning and know that I am living my true life. I do not want to feel like I am anyone less than who I was created to be. I want to surround myself with people who will cheer me on in my journey. The truth of this life is that we are to be there for each other. I abandoned my life to help others. I abandoned thinking that my own life was important enough to show up for myself for. So…

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Loss and inspiration
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It is 3am on a Thursday and I am awake. So many thoughts about so many things. But when I think about writing something, all I could think of was how lost I feel. I feel lost in a lot of things in life right now. I know I am moving forward and I have not given up hope in my future. But it is really hard to see anything right now. The lense of my life is very blurry. Earlier this week I attended a memorial of a friend’s spouse. This friend has been my hero. She was there…

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Snow and dreams
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This Christmas I woke up to a blanket of soft fresh snow on the ground. My first white Christmas. This next season of my life will be filled with firsts. First white Christmas. First Christmas being single since I was 18 years old. It is not my first Christmas alone, as I am not alone. As I reflect on what a gift it is to be alive and be able to experience some “first”, I think about how my last year has been. Filled with heartache and tears and many sleepless nights. In a few days it will be a…
