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This is me.
Collections and work of a 50 something woman and her encounters on this road called life. So this day, I speak about the smile I have that can light up the room. A smile that when given to a child, can brighten their face with the same lightness. A smile that I have had in pictures showing joy since I was real little. A straight set of teeth that I got from years of wearing braces through the awkward middle school years. a smile that is what most people want to see from me and can change your outlook on…
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Beauty within
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The rose hibernates Its beauty is within Unexposed while it gathers The sun plays a role The water and rain come The rose continues to gather Its root reaches down deep Soaks up all the nutrients From deep within It does not need prompts It can just be and flourish Through the wind and weather The rose continues to get ready The earth is changing Changing seasons while the rose waits Waits for the right time Waits for the right season Waits for the right growth All a balance in the earth All a balance in the soil All a…
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The Lake
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The lake was frozen this year It laid waiting for the sun to warm it up The sun to sparkle on all it is The lake is a place I travel The lake is where the quiet lays It is where the flowers will bloom But right now It is covered with ice What hides within? The beauty and crispness of the air I could stay here forever One day I will The trees overshadow the lake They watch over it with care They protect it from around The wind bends the trees The trees go with the bend Some…
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Loved
In my own little place I am loved I am well I think about all that is around The growth of a new leaf The perk of an old leaf I am grateful that I am in a place Where I can be All who I was always supposed to be My door does not open for many I am really okay with that My space and my energy I will protect me Something I had forgotten But grows more and more every day Protect my heart Protect my energy Protect what I have built These days are filled with…
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Victory is mine
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The Battle dropped in my lap But I rise above it Remembering that victory is coming Many events have occurred Many roles being played Some of them are assigned I chose to take on role of victor I am embracing this role No one assigned it to me It was assigned by me I will stand in what my life Will bring through I will stand and know that every choice is mine Every decision comes from within My freedom is my victory My voice is the way in it Sometimes I speak out Other times, I keep quiet Not…
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Lost little girl
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Where have you been? Have you found a place to restore? Why have you been gone for so long? The lost little girl came out today She sang outloud for all to hear She lifted her voice from the ashes Her voice to be heard Her eyes to be viewed Her feet set to ground to play The lost little girl has been found She lives on and in everything Her laughter rings clear She choses to skip and play She choses to be alive this day The lost little girl She felt the dirt between her toes The dirt…
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Today I sing
Today is Sunday I used to sing with others this day Not anymore I sing with others now But in a different way She surrounds me and listens She encourages and smiles I feel her all around me I wish I could feel her hug It would have helped But it is not too late I feel her now I can not wish for what I did not have I can only live now In this moment I am more More than what was expected More than most Still I am not better Just different I am very aware of…
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Remembering
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I remember when my children were little. They don’t run to me and tell me about their day. Those days are long gone. I miss them. I miss the identity of being a mom to them. I miss their energy and their love. I miss seeing them discover new things and become the people they are today. I miss the texts and the phone calls. I would do it all again. I would have them all and celebrate them more.
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Resiliance
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I am here I have much to say I will start dreaming again I have been through much in my years I know more is to come But this season is calm This season will be different It will be as unique as the leaves Falling from a tree in fall This season is for me This season is healing I am seeing all the resiliance that has developed It encircles me All the choices I have made Good and bad It has made me who I am Resiliant as fuck It is in my veins, in my blood I…
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This day
Welcome to this day It is the first of November Day of the dead celebration for some But for me, just another day Another day to think about all that has been But today, I think about all that can be A lot on my mind, but simple A business model A chance to shine A chance to change what was I sit in my little place I listen to music from Another time This week, I was reminded of my life before Before the changes I am content in where I am I can come and go as I…
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Today is a day to listen
Sometimes things are loud Sometimes they are soft Today is a day to listen I hear what I need to hear I hear what is not being said Today is a day to listen Listen to my heart Listen to my soul Today is a day to listen Learning to be still Learning to be silent Today is a day to listen Words do not always need to come Words do not always need to be said Today is a day to listen A day to hear what is there A day to hear what is not Today is a…
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The Rain
I hear it falling The music plays gently in the background The sounds of the waves crashing I can think of a better way to spend A day off In between the noise and chaos The sound of a car gliding through the puddles All in the neighborhood I call home It is not where I would have thought I would be But it is better than where I was Both in the mind and in the flesh The rain has a way of making one think of all the new ways to look at this life It clears and…
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A new step
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The river flows The ideas come The business starts The time will be soon She will live her truth She will find her place That belonging The sense of ownership It’s only her now Her world Her breath Her life She sees things Others do not see She stops and soaks it in Her life passed by fast All seems to slow Down to almost a stop She breaths in And she breaths out Her life has value She knows herself She becomes priority She is top of the list Her performance Is just for her She will engage with…
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Foreign to this world
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The world seems unfamiliar In the midst of it all There is something not right My world is not your world Your world is not mine Silence comes around me The universe bring forth what it may It shows me the way It brings into my world what is needed Sometimes I do not understand But more and more I am seeing it As it is and what it is for My world is different than yours I live in a place of unusual signs I choose to see them I stop and listen This is my choice Something I…
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Turn away
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A call came today Not expected or wanted But still it came Time to turn away Time to shut the door Delete what was Delete who was Delete that life Never to speak of again It will forever be their loss They are the losers in it all I will grieve no more The evidence shown The reality there Can not get the time back Can not change what happened But I can live this life now I can chose to spend my time now Invest in me Invest in my dog Invest in this life I have been given…
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Ground within
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The soil is ready The mixtures is just right It has been tilled for many moons The strength within it is unmarked Unknown by all except The gardener who tended it What lies within its grains? What is destined to grow? The dirt doesn’t tell a tale It shows through its growth Through its stems and through its leaves It grows up and out It grows and reaches Light and love Just like humans That is all it needs Light and love A perfect balance for any organism to thrive And it will thrive It will bloom into exactly What…
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The sway of the trees
Outside today there was a sway The ocean air blew through the trees The trees leaned into it They did not fight it They went with the flow of the earth The flow of the wind The sway of the heart There are many things to capture The heart and the attention But what is really important? Does it always need to be a fight? Can it just be a sit and ride it out? What will the choice be today? I choose to go with the sway The flow can catch me up Just like the waves of the…
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Night of tears
Yesterday was a sad day The night came quickly I could not feel numb Not enough to anyone The thought kept pouring in The repeat button engaged The tears flowed No one is coming No one needs to Alone you stand Alone again The time just keeps going on What will you do with it? Will you cry and grieve? Will you feel guilt and shame again? Walk away from it all Find a new way to go You have done it before You will do it again Wipe away the notion that crying is weak It is cleansing and…
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True identity
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The weather is cool The door is open The sage has been burned My life is changing Every step I take Brings me into something new Color on my nails Color on my toes It creates this unique individualism in me Something that was not seen as favorable But the eyes of the judges Are not relevant in my life I am meant to be different I am meant to stand out I stand in my uniqueness There is no one like me I will not be compared to anyone I am the only me I rise and shine with…
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A tear shed
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I looked back today I saw something that brought Me back to the tears So much time invested So little if anything To show for it all I know I will cry again But fuck if it will be today I am done crying over loss Of what I thought I meant To people whose character I do not even respect now I learned I hurt I moved on It won’t happen again I learned from trusting I learned to not give that away My trust, my tears, All very personal All from a very deep place My protection My…
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Shift
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There has been a shift The voice is becoming louder She took it back It was in the hands of people who should have never been given that control It was out of place It has been recovered The thoughts, the smirks, the smiles All come back with the voice It was muted but it now rings freely Practice using it Practice saying what you want The shift has happened The understanding is there The lack of will not be anymore A new way of being A new voice A new exploration This voice talks, sings, laughs It has been…
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Muted
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The tables have turned The movement is done The words were said They are laid to rest Not to be heard of again The move is forward The time is now It is beyond what it should have been Let it go, leave it there They will never be able to undo How they made you feel But they are gone now Your voice matters Your life matters You are important in this world You do not need to be silent anymore You do not need to retreat Or hide when you hear them coming They are out of your…
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Days
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The day comes and the day goes what will you make of it today? I made a choice I celebrated the day I took what was frustrating And I gave it right back to the universe I reconnected to the earth It was warm and welcoming It wrapped around me like a hug Some days we just need to scale back Think about the things that bring us joy Do the things that bring us peace The day came today The news came today I gave in to it and then released it I found the good in it I…
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Belong
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I belonged there The classroom with the children I was part of it I created the energy there It allowed for me to fully love To fully live with them The doors to my own life were not opened It was not there I was not at home I was loved there I was accepted there They were accepted there as well No one understood the magnitude of it all They still do not But I understood and created what was I offered a place of refuge A place where one was not teased A place where one could just…
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Heart love
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I gave to so many So many faces of lives I was able to touch The memories flood over me today They trusted me The parents trusted me with their tiny little ones A smile and a heart on my sleeve Very aware that they will forget me Knowing over time they will forget me But choosing over and over again to love It matters, I mattered to them I was part of their precious little lives for just a short time They live in my heart always The smile when they do something that was hard Me telling them…
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Live
A wind blows today The grayness of the sky prevails It shifts and forms what needs to go I sit in my place and feel it The shift, the change The clouds will take it away The butterfly comes gently It’s shadow casts over me Reminding me of what I am Reminding me of what will be Peace and joy and hope They all float through The hummingbird also has a presence It floats around me Watching and reminding me I am not who I was I will never be her again The window is shut on my life I…
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This day
This day marks the end The end of what was The end of what will be I step forward into this day I step forward with eyes forward I step forward with my eyes looking up Today will be a new day A new life A new way for me Behind is what was Not to be forgotten Just not to be lived in anymore It made me who I am today But it will not serve me in who I will be tomorrow Inside of today lies hope A new future A new life I know what direction it…
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Matters
It all doesnt matter It matters to no one All the effort is gone Never to be returned to its owner She lies waiting Waiting for someone, anyone But they won’t come She knows this in her soul It is just her now She is all that matters Love her, lean in to her She is all that matters now Leave it all behind.
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Some times
Today I feel it I feel it deep within my soul The change is coming It has been a long road There has been much unearthed The ways that are coming are new They are not expected but They are welcome A new path A new way A new start What will it show? What will it bring? Only the change knows But I am not afraid anymore I stand and just watch The new is coming It is uncomfortable but safe I look forward to seeing all that it unfolds I will be ready I will stand strong I…
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The wind blew today
The wind blew today I heard it whisper behind me I turned to see what way it was going The wind blew today It went where it pleased It was all around The wind blew today It went right through I felt its presence The wind blew today It danced on its next adventure It touched the trees The wind blew today It encircled what needed To be moved The wind blew today It was quiet But full of purpose The wind blew today Its freedom dance was evident It circled all around. 3-9-25
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Waves
The waves of my life crash They crash like the waves of the ocean Breaking down, building back The water cleansing The water breaking The water regaining its strength The waves will never be the same They have purpose and meaning They have intent and intention The waves crash over They come with such power and strength Mighty of the ocean behind it The waves crash and make new All the sand that is beneath They have their fluid mark Over me, they crash Over me, they wash They flow and cleanse The ocean is strong, and mighty Filled with…
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Sadness
Sadness is what I feel I long for a day That my head does not hurt I thought it was better But then it wasn’t Why won’t anyone believe me? What happened to her? The hurt has taken her Much less to fight the battle with Today I try and then tray again Seems like a long time The peace is there somewhere Will this pain ever end? Every night, I go to bed hopeful The list of things to do the next day Then it hits me I wake up and the pain remains There needs to be a…
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One day
One day my love will come I will be wrapped up in their embrace I will feel like nothing will hurt me One day my love will come They will think of me first I will be on their mind always One day my love will come But it will be different that I thought My love will come for me My love will be from me Embracing all that I am My love can only come from within No other person can fill that As much as I hope someone will I have to realize it is me I…
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Nature
The sun caught me up today The colors of the sky danced in front of my eyes The change, moment by moment Much as life changes To sit and freeze a moment is not living Living requires a new breath A new life brought right through A breath, a glance, the colors Ever changing, ever flowing What is up ahead? How will it change? One will only know if they are a part A part of it all Watching, waiting, living So much of life is on the sidelines I want to be all in I want to see, and…
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There is
There is a great big world out there The bird stands on the edge She stands where she has called home She looks over all that is waiting for her She has prepared for the day She will leap into this new world She learned a lot about life from the comfort of her nest but still she knows there is more There is more of life and living There is more to see and explore There are more ways to learn She will leave her comfort zone The lacks checks of health are underway She knows her time is…
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Hi, I am here for you
Hello there. I am here to take you with me I am here to pick you up and take you away You have been waiting for me I needed time to get it right I needed time to figure it out But now I am here for you I am here to fight for you and to help you stand again You have been through so much, little one But you will stand strong again You will be stronger and wiser You will not be hurt anymore You have been passed by and forgotten But I never forgot you I…
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One day
One day it will all come together The reasons and the whys will all make sense The hope and gratitude of the journey will make sense The day will come soon The evidence of work will be shown The love of life will be evident One day it will come The way of the newness of it all It will become clear and concise The day will come It will flow steadily It will have peace and tranquility The waves will become calm They will be looked upon with a sigh They will be welcomed and enjoyed One day, soon,…
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Leaves
The gentle wind blows The leaves dance They fall, fall, fall The tree is in a gentle sway They leaves move back and forth The tree is letting go The rain will come and Shower the tree It will remove all that was The tree knows the cycle Each year it grows a little more A few more leaves The nest lies in the tree Hanging on by its last thread It has long been empty Another tree nearby has life The bee searches and finds its flower Its wings too fast to see This tree gives life in a…
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Perspective
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I am going to be okay I will grow and learn about me Today was a step Tomorrow will be another step Today I stopped and gave myself a gift only for me I spent time reintroducing myself to a part of the earth that makes me whole again It has been awhile the connection It was long needed It made me feel at peace I am going to grow through I am going to let go It is not mine to hold anymore I am not in charge or anyone but me My life is finally mine to create…
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What if?
What if those years were not in vain? What if you think about how you grew How you affected the people placed in your life? How about the fact that you are still here? You lived through one of the hardest things You still have breath in your lungs and a smile on your face Those things created you. They created the resilience unknown to many It created that women you look back in the mirror What if, for just one moment, you think about who you became What gets you moving now? What keeps you putting one step in…
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Shift
Today a shift happened I was not expecting it I learned something about me It is about me now It is about what I want and what is in me It was there before and it is coming back out I saw the reactions of people Their anger and bitterness on their face I felt it in my soul, and I did not like it I wanted to get up and leave, but did not I did not expect that intensity Anger and bitterness of being in a job you no longer enjoy What is this life about? Do they…
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Never
As I am awake this morning A thought comes through my brain They will never know They will never know how it felt to be unloved They will never know how it felt to be unwanted Just like I will never know what they went through Time to let go of the hands that held so tightly I may fall and that is okay A soft ground will catch me and move me into the next step I can not expect anyone to understand I can not expect anyone to feel what I did It what was what it was…
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Heart
I housed them for nine months I nurtured them with my very breasts Four beautiful wonderful children They didn’t ask to be here But they were wanted by me Now I am not needed by them. Their cuts, scraps, and scars I know them too well They know none of mine I have to let go and move on They do not want me or need me They tend to thier own scars now They make the decisions for their lives I am not in control of them anymore The years I had them I loved But my time is…
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Grateful for the journey
The love I have can be found It can be found in the heart In the struggle of what was In the struggle of what will be. I am in the struggle but it is over. There is no longer a push and pull. I will not be pushed. The love I have for me will grow.
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Not looking back
It has been shown The lack of time The lack of giving I will move forward with my choice My choice to live for me Not for you, not waiting on you My life is my own Instead of wondering I am just going to move on So many things to see and experience So many places to still go I will find what works for me Step into the joy It has been promised Step into what is mine to grab My life, my choice It will be filled with trips Explorations and places There is a great big…
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Tiptoe
The feet lead me into the room The sound of the tiptoe Quiet, so not be seen or heard A child grows up in the distance Never really included or seen Never finding their place She tiptoes as to not be acknowledged If they don’t see her They wont hurt her She knows she does not belong She never fit or was part of She wonders why she is out Her life moves forward She stays in the shadows She remains unseen by most They take what they want She stands with nothing left Discarded yet again No value, no…
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Here it is
It is another morning looking for my place Looking for the home I seek My home and place are out there The people who have yet to love me I am walking this life I am on this journey of this life My life, unlike anyone else’s In the world today, my life is unique I will choose where to go and when to speak I look and nothing sits right with me The pressure of bills and life are around I will be okay this is one thing I am sure of I continue to look at, press on…
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Her
She made her presence known yesterday She came in like wildfire She was unexpected I like her She says what she thinks She takes back her power Her strength lies in her truth Her truth came flowing out She rose into who she is The confident one The resiliant one The one who never gave up The one who took care The one who sacrificed Many were touched Most will not know her role Her prayers, her stand She stood for them Now she stands for her She stands firm on the pillars She sees the change and embraces A…
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Deserve
I lie here awake It is getting late I should be asleep But my mind creeps on My mind circles around the last few days To be compared to a whirlwind Would be fair The ups and downs of this life Sometimes they flood in like a wave Other times I can barely see the next step My mind wanders to what was What could have been Still here I sit In my bed with the covers drawn I have created my own space My own place of home Does anyone see me? Have I gone unnoticed? Today I would…
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Certainty
There is no urgency anymore One can not take the steps and be complete There is an ongoing process to it all THere is no final destination The road to healing is challenging It brings forth an uneasy way A way that is not defined or surrounded by barriers There is no set path As there is no set destination The heart of the traveler Knows the way. The heart must be followed on the individual journey of life The path varies for all that travel The path can lead to many places My place and my destination is different…
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Found
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The lessons have been learned. The time has come, The healing is overdue, The time is right. Feel what you feel. Let it feel and come out. The feelings are there. They are raw and obvious. The love from her comes together. It is radiant, like the sun. It is full and bountiful. It is ready to be free. The girl inside wants to come forth. She needs to be set free. The parent of her has come. She needs to be held. The love the woman has for her. The bind of love that is seen. The things that…
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Mother
The heart of a mother beats like no other It beats for two It feels for two One for their child Once for their own heart Their soul give all, it knows to give The love of a mother is like no other. The sacrifices, the life given up The reason to be all for them To be and provide all the love they need It brings them into their future. They don’t reach out for you anymore You built them to be self sufficient They are doing it on their own You poured out all you knew to pour…
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Art is my therapy
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Art comes in many different forms It comes in the wind It comes through the pen It comes through natural dance The movement of art is free Free to those that want it The flow of art frees the soul It frees the mind of worry The freedom art can bring is boundless It can flow slowly or strong My art is dance My art is drawing My art is healing It brings me back to the days of youth The days of being free to be just me The art and creativity lay dormant The world and pressures press…
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The Silence, the blank canvas
In the silence there is much to see There is much to explore and expand In the silence the heart can slow The mind, can follow and slow as well. In the silence a new creature emerges Like a butterfly coming out of a cacoon The silence of the wet wings flap. The potential lies in those wings The blank canvas of its own life The blank canvas of my life In the silence I discover In the silence, my heart calms. In the silence, the colors of the canvas are chosen. What will it be? What colors will come…
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Creativity and courage
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Courage comes in many forms In comes in bring brave It comes in trying something new Courage comes when strength is needed Creativity is always in the mind It is in the heart as well Creativity comes when the stillness arrives The stillness is what may come The courage is to be someone new The creativity to imagine what that is The depth of the heart and soul The alignment and grace between them The love of the creative and courageous The heart of one who pocesses both The space and time to be both The soul of the one…
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Art and creativity
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Art and creativity lead to healing Find what lights your heart searching for what soothes your soul. The creativity of art is opened. The heart is overwhelmed by what’s inside. The love of the healed soul. The stretch and push to get there. How will one know? Are we all on this process of healing? Are we all trying to heal from the wounds? Will the heart ever heal? Will creativity bring healing? Will the exploration of heaving peace show? One can only be on the journey The journey is ongoing and complex The journey is tretcherous and hard The…
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Just thinking…
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Something big is coming, and maybe it is not big. Maybe it is just something small and peaceful. I would be totally okay with that. I do not need to save the world. I just need to exist and occasionally do things that bring me joy and growth. I want to be important, I want to feel important. And I will. I will be searching for my new place. My new place to be who I am meant to be. To be silly and laugh and smile. Life is very interesting. To say that the last few years have been…
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Return for her
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Today, I went back for the 16 year old version of me. It was a weird feeling. It was a bag of mixed feelings. I have a lot of healing to do. But I also feel like I am finally finding my voice in it all. I am finding that I had the voice, it came out here and there for certain things. Mainly to defend others. Now it is my time to defend me. To stand up for me. To be there for me. I may stand alone, but these two feet stand strong. They always have. They have…
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The woman
The love I have can be found It can be found in the heart in the struggle of what was in the struggle of what will be. I am in the struggle but it is over There is no longer a push and pull I will not push me any longer The love I have for me will grow. The love I have for others is protected Its protected by the heart its protected by the woman The woman who has light around. She sees me deep within She sees the depth of my soul. She sees the whole me…
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Injured
I am an injured wolf, so to speak. I have been injured but with great care for myself, I will recover and be better. I will not stay down. I will stand up and dust myself off. Check for any bleeding and start to heal. I will not continue to open the wounds that are labeled on me. So many to list and think of. So many that swirled around in my brain through the night and through the day. Always something. I still have many things to do with my life. I still have a lot of things to…
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In honor of…Mrs. Peckham
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This past week a very special person past away. My middle school English teacher fought the fight of breast cancer for over 30 years and it finally won. She was a fighter, she was the original fighter. She was the strongest woman I have ever met. Her personality was strong and tenacious and she left a deep impression on my heart. I met this Scottish woman when I was in middle school. I had heard about her. She was tough and could be mean. She was loud and others were quite afraid of her. she had a legacy of being…
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Proud
Last night I was walking back to my car from my college class. A class I have had to drop and a class that I have failed several times. The “last class.” The last class until I have earned my BA in child development. My nemesis, if you will. As I passed the very familiar tennis courts on the way to my car, a tear started to fall. A tear of pride. You see, not far, less than a quarter mile from this spot I was walking on is a park. A park that many things in my life happened…
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Wolf grin and tiger growl
I just want truth in my life. I just want to be able to get up in the morning and know that I am living my true life. I do not want to feel like I am anyone less than who I was created to be. I want to surround myself with people who will cheer me on in my journey. The truth of this life is that we are to be there for each other. I abandoned my life to help others. I abandoned thinking that my own life was important enough to show up for myself for. So…
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Poetry and inner work
It is a Wednesday and I am at the coffee shop. I have spent the last few hours working on math. The dreaded statistics class. I am glad I got as far as I could. This past weekend I explored some things on my own. I went to a play and I went to a poetry workshop. As I sit here, I see my reflection of my necklace and it says the Ho’oponono saying on it. I am very proud of where I am in my life. I am here and I am working on me. I am unapologetic about…
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Release
Release. Release those that have disappointed you. Release your past. Release all the things. So in an attempt to do just that. I write. I write about things that may have happened in a life that I have learned from but that I walk away from. I will not live there anymore. It’s time is up. Just a I sit here, the rain comes down. The rain is being released to be free to hit the earth and do its next job on earth by allowing it to make things grow. It is a circle I want to be part…
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Keep going
I sat on the couch in the home of my 8th grade English teacher. This was the second visit in the last few months with her. We sat and talked and watched one of her favorite shows she found on television. Her fiesty comments reminded me of sitting in her class so many years ago. So here was my chance to ask her some things and so I did. “Mrs. P, can I ask you a question?” She said, “sure”. “What keeps you going?” I asked. “Rage,” she said quickly. This was not the response I had anticipated. Thinking about…
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Life and thoughts
Hello and good afternoon. It is a lazy Sunday afternoon and I am at a coffee like house and I sit and listen to the music playing. Very jazz and very mellow. I would like to think that this is how my life has merged into. Mellow. The craziness of the world and what I have been through sometimes can overwealm me. The thought this morning about being okay to be sad and sit in what I need to sit in. It is not a very fun place to have to sit in. But it is necesary for complete healing.…
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Loss and inspiration
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It is 3am on a Thursday and I am awake. So many thoughts about so many things. But when I think about writing something, all I could think of was how lost I feel. I feel lost in a lot of things in life right now. I know I am moving forward and I have not given up hope in my future. But it is really hard to see anything right now. The lense of my life is very blurry. Earlier this week I attended a memorial of a friend’s spouse. This friend has been my hero. She was there…
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Strength
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I was gifted this incredible strength. I believe it was from birth. I was placed in a family that developed my strength. As an adult, I have always been told I was strong. As I reflect back on that now, I can honestly say I had to be strong. Not in a victim way, but as a true reflection of who I am. Deep in my soul and in my character. It was placed in me this strength. I continue to amaze myself as to what I have endured and have developed into being who I am. Who I was…
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Energy
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My energy is what makes me who I am. I had lost it for quite some time. I let it seep out of me like a bad lingering cut you keep opening up. My energy is weird, unusual, fierce, and untouchable. I am unique and have been since birth. My presence has always been one of much conviction. I hold true to what my core beliefs are. I can laugh at myself but am also the hardest on my self. I am always in competition with myself. My creative side reveals much more of the inner dancer I connected with…
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Words
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I have so much in me to say, to be heard. Create a life for me. Create friends that will walk with me and I with them. It is my chance for a new life. A life filled with fun and laughter. I will be happy again. It is my time. I will learn to love me. I will come first as I am all I have. I have waited long enough. I want to laugh. I want to dance. But I will live. I will experience life and I am grateful I can. No turning back and no regrets.…
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Snow and dreams
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This Christmas I woke up to a blanket of soft fresh snow on the ground. My first white Christmas. This next season of my life will be filled with firsts. First white Christmas. First Christmas being single since I was 18 years old. It is not my first Christmas alone, as I am not alone. As I reflect on what a gift it is to be alive and be able to experience some “first”, I think about how my last year has been. Filled with heartache and tears and many sleepless nights. In a few days it will be a…
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Who am I?
Well into level 50ish in my life right now. I am a collection of writings and happenings. I live and flow with the trees and the ocean. My life is simple, a cool dog who looks like Toto and a career of preschooling to look back on. I have also spent some time working at a pretty cool zoo. None of this defines me, it just adds to who I am. Come along this journey with me and be prepared to nod your head, maybe laugh, and be encouraged. It is what life is about after all.
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