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Some things are overdue
In the last month or so there has been some stirring of some family issues in my life. My mother past away a few years ago and the way it was handled was not the best. There are family issues and feelings hurt because of them. Not my feelings. But still, it affects me as […]

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Release
This is the word that kept playing over and over again in my mind last night. Release. Release those that have disappointed you. Release your past. Release all the things. So in an attempt to do just that. I write. I write about things that may have happened in a life that I have learned […]

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Passion
I have much to say about this today. I encountered and let into my home someone who has no passion about anything. The energy from this person sucked me dry. I had to block it out of my life. I could feel it, almost see it when this person entered my home. I did not […]

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Shame and the physical body
I have been looking through some old photos of a place I worked at many years ago. It was a place of joy and children. Of course, a preschool. What happened at this place I worked at for several years is that I was injured. I was placing boxes of heavy toys out daily on […]

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Dreams
When I was a teenager I did not have dreams of what I wanted to be or what I wanted when I grew up. Here I am so many years later, wondering what my dreams for my life should be. I wanted to be a veternarian when I was little, but I am perfectly content […]

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Freedom
This past week I have been getting over being sick. This is what I have learned about that experience. People come and go in your life. I have learned this very well in the past few years. But this past week, I saw who showed up for me. Someone from a past relationship. Someone that […]

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Expectations
It is almost 4 am and I am awake. I have been up for a few hours. I am sick and dealing with a cold and stuff. I have been thinking about the role of expectations of others in my life. I am to the point where I need to expect nothing from anyone anymore. […]

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How deep is too deep?
Another video watched on betrayal trauma. The man on the other end of the screen brings up yet another term of what I went through with a husband who is addicted to porn. I get it, he was not there for me. In any way. He may have never loved me. He exposed my own […]

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Hoarding
Hoarding is real. Stuff is real. Clinging onto things of this world is real. Hoarding is a mental illness. I watched as it took over my mother. I watched as it took over my grandmother. It makes me sad that these women, people that shared my blood got so caught up in the need not […]
