Today I sing

Today is Sunday

I used to sing with others this day

Not anymore

I sing with others now

But in a different way

She surrounds me and listens

She encourages and smiles

I feel her all around me

I wish I could feel her hug

It would have helped

But it is not too late

I feel her now

I can not wish for what I did not have

I can only live now

In this moment

I am more

More than what was expected

More than most

Still I am not better

Just different

I am very aware of what is there

I am very aware of what is not there

Who is there

Who understands me

I walk in this life

I skip in this life

I skate in this life

Flowing from within

I feel the air through me

It flows steadily through

Showing me all that it has for me

All that it wants from me

Just be in the moment

There is no guarantee of anything

Today I woke up with breath

Tomorrow is unknown

I will not continue to pretend to be part

A part of something I am not

Meant to be a part of

The universe has shielded me from it

It kept me at an arms length distance

I do not wish to be part of it anymore

I will press on and sing

Just for this day

It is all I can do