Belong

I belonged there

The classroom with the children

I was part of it

I created the energy there

It allowed for me to fully love

To fully live with them

The doors to my own life were not opened

It was not there

I was not at home

I was loved there

I was accepted there

They were accepted there as well

No one understood the magnitude of it all

They still do not

But I understood and created what was

I offered a place of refuge

A place where one was not teased

A place where one could just be themselves

no agendas, no plans, led by interest only

The children understood

They could be creative and be their true self

No performances needed

No skills to have to know

A chance to just be them

This is my chance now to be all that I can

I understand my assignment

I will choose what I allow in

It is not a part of me anymore

But my heart will always remember

what was given and what was taken

it makes me live now

Not then

I live with no more regrets

I belong right where I am right at this moment

Those around me just watching, can fuck off

My life is not on display for you anymore.