Shift

Today a shift happened

I was not expecting it

I learned something about me

It is about me now

It is about what I want and what is in me

It was there before and it is coming back out

I saw the reactions of people

Their anger and bitterness on their face

I felt it in my soul, and I did not like it

I wanted to get up and leave, but did not

I did not expect that intensity

Anger and bitterness of being in a job you no longer enjoy

What is this life about?

Do they teach us to be at a job for 40 years?

Even though in the depths of your soul you hate it?

This is not the life that is in my future

I can see that clearly

I do need to work but I refuse to give up my energy

I went back for the degree

I have it on hand

But it will not define who I am or limit me

I will seek after that which makes me happy

It is my shift in time to do just that

Be who I am supposed to be

Not what they want me to be

I was many things for many people

But I never was me for me

That shift has changed

That woman came out

She saw it firsthand in another woman

It pushed the desire to not put up with shit anymore

Not let others define you or fit you into what they think

I will be me, unapologetically

The things that have been in me since birth

are starting to burst forth

I can see it happening

I am not scared of it anymore

I sat and was part of something that fed my very soul

The very depths that had been denied

Forgotten to help someone else find their way

It is not about them anymore

My shift is here and now.