Never

As I am awake this morning

A thought comes through my brain

They will never know

They will never know how it felt to be unloved

They will never know how it felt to be unwanted

Just like I will never know what they went through

Time to let go of the hands that held so tightly

I may fall and that is okay

A soft ground will catch me and move me into the next step

I can not expect anyone to understand

I can not expect anyone to feel what I did

It what was what it was

I will not feel sorry for myself anymore

This is what they do

They move on

It is not personal

It was never personal

I did my job well and I gave all I knew to give

I am grateful I can give that way

It means I have stepped out of the family’s line

Out of the family’s line of holding back

My family, his family, their family

I chose my own way

I will not regret giving that way

I broke the cycle, it ends with me

This day I step out

I step one foot in front of the other