Deserve

I lie here awake

It is getting late

I should be asleep

But my mind creeps on

My mind circles around the last few days

To be compared to a whirlwind

Would be fair

The ups and downs of this life

Sometimes they flood in like a wave

Other times I can barely see the next step

My mind wanders to what was

What could have been

Still here I sit

In my bed with the covers drawn

I have created my own space

My own place of home

Does anyone see me?

Have I gone unnoticed?

Today I would not have cared

I remained me through my day

I reminded myself of who I always have been

That little brat needs to come out

It is her turn to live this life

It is her turn to be all she can be

She has been tied down long enough

She is done sitting in the corner

She is front and center

She loves that she is having a chance

A chance to live in this life

A chance to add to this life

She is just what we need

The rebel girl who lived each day

Let her come out and let her play

It is her time now

No more bound to anything

No more obligations

You have lived this life

It has been a very different type of life

But it is one that you had to live

To make the people like you

To make them think you were enough

Time to do what you want

Not what others want from you

No more doing for others before myself

Those days are gone

As I walk in this new life

I am reminded of the lightness of what is

My life is light now

It is not weighed down anymore

Hold your head up high

Those that need to see you will

Those that don’t look, let them go

They are not needed in your life

You have this great big crazy life

You need to jump in head first

Dive into all that is yours

You deserve it all.