Just thinking…

Something big is coming, and maybe it is not big.

Maybe it is just something small and peaceful.

I would be totally okay with that.

I do not need to save the world.

I just need to exist and occasionally do things that bring me joy and growth.

I want to be important, I want to feel important.

And I will.

I will be searching for my new place.

My new place to be who I am meant to be.

To be silly and laugh and smile.

Life is very interesting.

To say that the last few years have been turbulance, would be an understatement.

I never thought my life would look like this.

I never thought I would be able to just make the choice to go to the ocean and go and jump in.

I never thought I would be able to be on skates again, thought those days were behind me.

But here I am.

I never thought I would have so much freedom to do what I want, but here I am.

I get to choose my life.

I get to choose to live in a studio.

I get to choose what I will have surrounding me and who I will let into my world.

Venturing into the unknown.

I know it too well.

I am in the unknown right now.

Using what I have.

Thinking about what I could get rid of to make my life more simple.

Today will be a day of doing just that.

Getting rid of things.

I can not live in anything that does not being me joy.

I will not do it.

I deserve more.