I have spent hours of my time just waiting. Waiting for someone to reply. Waiting for something from someone. I waited again last night. I waited again this morning. Waiting for someone to give a shit about me.
It is time for me to stop waiting on others. Waiting for other people to care about me. Waiting for others to ask me how I am. Waiting for someone to say that they care about me and want the best for me. It is done. I do not need their approval and I am tired of wasting my time with people who do not really care about me. If I am honest, they probably only care about themselves. People will be people and so selfish.
Maybe is it time for me to be selfish as well. You don’t want to check on me. Fine, don’t. I will make it on my own anyways. I always have. I want to be surrounded by people who actually give a shit about me and my life. Not someone who drops in to see what they can dump on me or what they can get from me. It is this constant demand. Maybe I am making it as well. But I truly just want someone to give a shit about my life and my well-being.
Tonight, I will burn my papers. I will make the step to the next phase of my healing. I will be all I need to be. I will do what I need to do for me. No one else is going to do it. It is time.
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