Assumptions

I have had a moment of realization. Yesterday, well Friday, I had a discussion with someone about someone from my past. Hemming and hawing about how they were and what was thier intention on something in the present. Holding onto what was. I can not do that anymore. I still do not think highly of this person but I can not hold onto the feeling of what are their motives for sending a text to me. I can not do it anymore. It brings up all this negative thought and energy that I do not like. I lean on the side of letting it go. Letting go of what I thought was. Letting go of what was.

The thought of letting it go and letting it be is what I want in my life. I do not need to assume anything about anyone anymore. It goes along with expectations and I do not want to or need to live there anymore. It has taken too much of my thought pattern and negativity. I can not. I will not. I will live life in the moment and not just assume anything about anyone anymore. It will take time, I know, but yesterday. Responding with a simple text did not take anything at all and I did just that. I responded with what the texter wanted. Sent out what they needed and felt relief about it. It was done.

No more of the thinking beyond what they wanted or any of that. I can not live there. Again and again, I can not live there anymore. Assumptions make an ass out of you and me. I can not. I can not. I will not. I am worth more than focusing my mind on what could be, what someone else is thinking. I am not them. I do not live in thier life. I am not in charge of anything they have or become. I can not take control of what they are thinking. If they want to tell me what they are thinking, they can tell me. I am okay with that. I am okay with not knowing what they are thinking because chances are they are not thinking what I think about. They are different than me.

I am moving into a new phase. An I don’t give a fuck phase. It is here and coming on strong.