In the last month or so there has been some stirring of some family issues in my life. My mother past away a few years ago and the way it was handled was not the best. There are family issues and feelings hurt because of them. Not my feelings. But still, it affects me as these are my brothers and I do care for them.
We were not close growing up. Divorce and decisions of our parents took its toll on the four children they brought into this world. Decisions based on what they thought was best at the time. Still dealing with that but it was not my choice.
I have brought up the fact that the will of our father needs to be sorted. It needs to be reviewed. There needs to be clarity. I did that, for as much as I could do. I went through everything I had. I said what I needed to say. I wrote down my concerns and now I walk away. Not going to buy into the name calling or assuming I am a certain way. I know how I am. I do not need to defend my character anymore. I do not have time for it, not do I need to always feel like I need to justify myself. Not to these people. Ask me the questions if you need to. I am an open book. But do not put a label on me because of your lack of knowledge.
My pushing of the issue with the will has brought about conversations that need and should have been had many years ago. All I can hope and ask for. I have said my peace about it and will just move forward. I will reply and answer when asked. I have said my side and concerns. Whatever happens now, will just happen. The story of my family will not remain what it has been. It will grow and evolve into whatever the universe wants it to be. The conversations will happen. In time, the door has been opened up and I am grateful to be standing by the door and welcoming them. Wherever they may lead. I am not carrying the baggage of resent and anger that the lineage before me carried. I will not pass that on to my children. I refuse.
Quiet Intensity 