Energy

I was on my walk this morning with my dog and I was listening to music by P!nk. I realized that my energy is what I need to tap into. Not energy like what I need to do things. But my internal energy. I was on a few dating sites and when asked what I was looking for, I wrote someone who matches my energy. I was then asked what that meant. This is what it means to me. My energy is what makes me who I am. I had lost it for quite some time. I let it seep out of me like a bad lingering cut you keep opening up.

My energy is weird, unusual, fierce, and untouchable. I am unique and have been since birth. My presence has always been one of much conviction and I hold true to what my core beliefs are. I can laugh at myself but am also the hardest on my self. I am always in competition with myself. To be better, to be more, to try my best to reach a point where I feel like I am enough. My creative side reveals much more of the inner dancer I connected with when I was a child. My inner ballerina. I have a deep connection with the outdoors. There is something very empowering about climbing a huge hill or sitting in the midst of trees surrounding you that makes you grounded. I am still that girl.

You will find me on my bike, going places. Rollerskating till my hips tell me to stop. You will see me exploring my energy. I want to be with and surrounded by others who know how to laugh and be light in light. Carry themselves in their own life as light. I am not interested in the drama or weight of others. It is just me now and a very fun little dog. I do not have the need to be anyone other than who I was meant to be. I get to figure that out. It is scary and exciting all in the same breath. It means taking a lot of chances, a lot of risks. One only has one life to live. I am living it in the now and here. I am here to discover it all.