the one

My life has been filled with many people, coming and going in and out of my life. How does one know if the person they are talking to are the one? How do they do if this person is as sincere as you think they are or are you blinded by the flaws to only see the good in the person? I do not have the answers to these things as I am human and humans can have good discernment, but can also have bad discernment.

Human life involves being hurt and loving hard. This is what I have learned in the past few years. I have and am capable of loving someone with all that I have. Losing who I am to be what I think they want me to be. This is beyond wrong for them and for me. I accept that this is what I did and I will learn as I move forward.

Back to the subject at hand. I want to be in a marriage that is pleasing to God. I want to be with a man who will protect me and take care of me. He will listen to me and discuss things with me when he feels that I am off or he is off. I want someone who I feel safe with. I do not want to worry about what he is doing when he is not with me. I want him to love every part of my weird uniqueness that makes me, me. I want that man. I want that man who prays to God and is God feared.

My God has sent him to me. I want to be happy. I deserve to be happy. I want to be in Gods perfect will for my life so that I can be all he wants me to be. I want to complete someone else and matter to them. I want to be thier first choice, not anything less. I want them to put me before themselves and live in the freedom of who I am with them. I want to be all God intended me to be when he created me. I need this. I deserve true love. I have found what I believe is just that. I can only think and hope and pray that this is who God has sent me. I have no doubts.