Lost her

I have realized that I have lost her. I have lost that confident woman I once was. I allowed her to leave, at times, I kicked her to the curb. I miss her, I miss having a voice that matters to anyone. I miss being confident of who I am when I look in the mirror. I was pushed down. I do not know how to recover from this. An issue with a family member, feeling like my voice does not matter. It does not matter to many.

I dont know how to get her back. I do not want to live there anymore. I don’t want to live this life of constant battle with myself. I know better, I have been in worse places, why has this been so hard? My heart was given to another, he stomped on it.