Today is another day of being home and resting my foot from the pain that happened just a few days ago. As I sit and think about what is happening with my body, I am surprised it has taken this long for it to start breaking down with all that I have had to process in the past months. Today I have been taking a long time to connect with God this morning as I just feel like numb. No other word to describe it. I am ready to move on with my life and put the past behind me. Behind me, looking forward only. I must look forward. My past can not be changed, my choices in the past can not be changed. I must live in today. I am open to changing everything in my life, I have already had to change so much, more won’t make that much a diffrence. It is time for me to glorify God in every area of my life.
This may mean a change of career, I have been teaching for the last 16 years and have directing a preschool for the last year and a half. I have built up a preschool, but with no recognition from above as they just want to pack more kids in. No help, no empathy, no investment. I am sad that I may leave teaching but I also know that it may be my time to use other gifts that God has given me. So many decisions, yet so many are so clear.
Being or feeling numb is not that bad, as it is recognizing that you have to sit still before God and let Him work through you. THere is nothing I can do of myself, I can only do because of Him. As I go to yet another interview, please be with me God and help me see ALL you have for me! I want to be in Your will for my life and be pleasing you in all areas. Heal my broken heart and restore it to new.
Quiet Intensity 