Change

I wanted to name this writing something like, when your life just crashes in on itself or something eye catching and drastic. But that would give the concept of what I am experiencing as a negative thing. Instead, changes is more appropriate. As whatever I am headed into in my life will be a change. A much needed change. When you sit in comfortable for so long, whether you like it or not, you get used to what is. Your eyes become less knowledgable and willing to see what is really there and what really needs to change.

You also stop your learning and your growing during a process called life. I do not think that the God I serve wants me to ever feel like I have stopped growing. As every story and account Jesus had with people, I have grown. He grew in wisdom and stature. I want to grow in that way as well. I want to be what God intended for me to be without all the hurt. The hurt created me and I do not regret it. I am grateful for the hurt as it has taught me so much about myself, about God and about the people I am around. I do not live in fear of change. I think about how Jesus never had a home, he never left his “stuff” anywhere. He has on his person all he needed, which was not much. I want to venture in this life with not much. I do not want to be chained to anything or stuff. I want to live my life free as God created me to be.

Changes can be difficult but also can be the best thing needed to grow into what you need to be. God doesnt like stagnant anything. I am grateful. He sees in me the beauty that was always there and I beleive him. He is my God, my creator and my life. I am nothing without him and all I do is for Him. He sees me as precious. He loves me without condition or control. He sees the good in me and beleives me as He was there when my life and situations happened. I am grateful.

Lots of changes are coming in my life. Some will be hard, some will be easy. But I know that God will be right there with me holding my hand as I face anything. I do not need to be afraid. I want my choices to honor Him. I want my choices to bring me closer to Him, in all areas of my life. He is my reason and He is my love.